I love reading other people's blogs. The ideas they talk about are really inspiring! However, as a mommy and a woman, they also often make me feel like sh**. I mean the pictures they post are of a family who is always having fun and exciting adventures (and getting along), houses that are perfectly put together, clean and creatively decorated, and a life that is well, not at all messy. I realize that the beauty of a blog is that you can post whatever you want, but these blogs make me feel completely discouraged. As a working woman, wife, and mother of two, our life is crazy! When I was in my late teens, early twenties, I would picture my life as I thought it would be when I was a "grown-up". For some reason, in the image I have in my head I was always in an airport. I also was taller than I am, very shapely in all the right places and have darker, long, wavy hair (go figure!). I was wearing a dress- one of those that would gather at the waist with a belt, and I always have on heels and am quite comfortable. For some reason, I am foreign and can speak several languages. I have beautiful, well-behaved, curly haired children, and when people looked at me they would think, wow that woman has it all together!
Now at 31, I have come to realize I have to let go of this strange image in my head and embrace my life as it really is- an awesome mix of the ordinary and extraordinary, and extremely messy. I also cannot be the only woman in this world who struggles with what they thought their life would turn out as and how it has turned out. It is not that I am unhappy as a wife, mother and working-woman, it is just that my life doesn't match up with that woman who has somehow been engraved in my mind. So, I want this to be a place where women can share their lives as they really are and embrace all of the joys and messiness of life...
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